How bad do you feel when Palace Loose

Being older now , at least I can get over a defeat without it ruining the day after the result. The one that still gets me is the gut feeling we’re not going to loose this one , my inner believer tells me it’s going to be a win my very sole tingles telling me it’s a no brainer. Then we loose. I guarantee the next morning my eyes open it’s the first thing that smacks me in the face , another day in misery. I know it makes winning away at Man City feel like every good day you have ever had, but this is Palace ,why can a football team rule my life. Anyone else on the same level or worse than my feelings or grammar ? .