My desperation then my moment of true Epiphany !!

Hi everybody I'm the one you all slagged off when I suggested Pardew be sacked at the end of last season, some very rude people if you wish to view my previous posts to clarify. Anyway here's my vision of hope for you all. Walking away from the game tonight I honestly felt like crying. Pardew has killed our team and its spirit I thought as my eyes welled up. Then for a reason I can not honestly say why, a feeling of positivity welled up from somewhere within. I don't drink or smoke and am pretty sane. The feeling was like a higher being assuring me we will survive this year, big Sam will turn it around in the next 3 to 4 games. Watch and believe my fellow mourners watch and believe !